Early mornings and Navrathri...

First morning of Navrathri... I was kind of apprehensive yesterday night that I wont be able to wake up as I slept almost close to midnight. But then around 4 AM I woke up from a dream. And quite a weird dream it was - very dramatic! One thing though is quite interesting! This girl I think is deeply in love with guy but he is supposed to marry this other girl who is her best friend too. Many times the friend had my sisters face. Interesting! Wedding morning i am looking desperately for myfriend. There I enter this room in the palace - all the walls are decorated with henna and I see the bride sitting there. Her face covered. I (my awareness seeign the dream) observes that this is not the actual bride but the friend. The groom comes in and thinking this is his bride, gets married. And as soon as the marriage and the phere end he realises this is the other girl but seems like he too loved her or something. The bride leaves the mantap runs out to the terrace and I watch in horror as she jumps down the cliff. And it is utter panic. The groom runs behind her and I know he is going to jump! PAUSE!

Now this is where it blows my mind! The groom is running with a huge pole and he then puts it down and somehow the bride didnt fall but is hanging. He hooks her and lifts her off! And there I woke up. The fear is still strong in my heart! I look at the clock it is like 3:45 am..

Just yesterday I was talkign about fear and what a marvel to go beyond the sensation of fear. It hit me that Fear is totally ignorance of the small mind. The separation or the feeling of other causes fear! I just lied down observing the feel of fear and watched it slowly disappear and fill me with such peace. And at the same time, I was looking at my dream. Everytime in my dream I can change the course of my dream. No! Not waking up but in the dream. Say I am falling of the cliff the very next minute I can like have a parachute and land slowly. Like being aware of being in the dream and yet being in the dream. And also many times being able to change the course of the dream without actually manking an effort - like i didnt know the bride would be saved but I didnt want the bride to die either! And there is a term for it - it is called lucid dreaming! Very interesting!

Ok! so i was wide awake ever since. Got up effortlesly when the alarm rang. Had shower, made prasad, lit the lamp. And then as the group came in we did kriya together and watched Pathanjali Yoga Sutra discourse of Gurudev -tape 1. It just dawned on me that 6 years back I came to know about lucid dreaming at the Pathanjali sessions through one of the participants as he was talking about lucid dreams and I said, "thats my kind of dreams most of the time". Till then I thought everyone dreamed that way! So somehow a circle got complete today!

I can only be in gratefulness...
Therei s so much completeness in everything...
how is that!